In 20 days, (or less!) I will be finally living in the same city and state as her. Not to mention, also the same apartment. I've thought about this time in my life for 1, 095 days now, and I always thought it would feel surreal. That I wouldn't even be able to imagine it because of how long we haven't had that luxury. But, really, I mostly just feel like, "it's about damn time."
Looking back, I know distance was right for us. (Try to find anyone else who feels that way and I think you'll come up empty!) We needed to be forced to be alone with ourselves and work on our own hurdles alone, in order to be able to be together in a healthy, loving relationship. We needed to learn that the best kinds of relationships, are one in which two individual people can come together and celebrate, and cherish the other for who they are on their own, and who they become together. For that, I am so grateful.
But now, we're ready. We are so ready to be together. To come home to each other everyday. I think that's the part that will be surreal (but maybe, hopefully, it's just normal), coming home everyday and seeing her. I think after a week we'll be like, "ok, so...one of us is supposed to leave now" and then WE WON'T. AH.
I've been getting a lot of texts, calls, and letters from friends. Some of my best, and some who have reconnected with me after a long time. They all keep saying they can't wait to visit me & S when we move in together. The part of me that believes in "signs" and karma and, my favorite phrase my momma taught me, "the universe will bring it to you," believes that this is a sign. My friends see that I'm finally getting to the place I want to be, and happiness and contentment tend to draw people in. I can't wait to have them visit me, us, (WHAT?!) and be a part of this new part of my life. To be actively a part of it.
So to any friends who still read this, you are always welcome in our home. Thank you for being such a huge part of my life, and our relationship, for the past 3 years. That time apart from S, but with you, are part of what make us as strong as we are now.
